how is any of this supposed to make someone happy

the youth of today

Date	Name/email Nom/email	What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
26 Apr 2011	Sione	My suggestion is this. Get some accomplishment. Spend a week learning survival techniques, really, really learning and then at the end of that week run away. Run away to the mountains and walk as far out as you can. Then just try to survive. If you live you live, if you die you die. But maybe while you are out there trying to survive you will gain a new appreciation of life and if you make it through the ordeal you will want to live and live life fully. This is what I plan to do anyhow. I hope this helps
26 Apr 2011	Killmenow	My dad abuses me and I went to school with marks. They called ACS. But he lied and got away with it.
24 Apr 2011	NWABISA	THE HOUSE OF THE LORD!!
23 Apr 2011	def	I think you should take a train... on the rail
23 Apr 2011	Delicious	Im 33 years old i have no 1 i lost my kids over 2 and ahalf years ago i cant see them and i almost died last year i dont want 2 live what do i have 2 live 4 rite now nothing
22 Apr 2011	Kelsey	Honestly.... I have been suicidal since the 3rd or 4th grade.. All because my nana, the only person besides my duggie of a dad, was the only one to care about me. She died 2weeks before my 8th birthday. The first time i tried commiting suicide i tried to sufficate myself. But my friend found me and snitched on me. And every since ive tried over dos, drowning, suffication, etc. Ive never tried to cut myself bc its too painful. But my mom is a bitch and my two little sisters are evil (im 14 by the way) and i see no point in living. My dad has been in and out of jail for not paying hild support for my half brother since i was born. Hes the reason why i dont believe in promises... He broke them... And i feel alone 24/7 but i igure if i put a fake smile on my face then ill make it... But all it does is make it worse on me. My boyfriend of 2years on and off (bc we live 600miles away) keeps telling me that my depression stage will go away i i wanted it too and i "will" stop thinking negativly. But he doesn know. And my loving him with all my heart and the things we have been through and everything just puts more crap on me... Plus my mom doesnt even understand about my suicidal thoughts. She doesnt believe that im depressed or anything... In a way i want to live and make my nana proud but then again i want to die to be with her. Which creates another problem... Heaven and hell... I i were to kill myself id probably go to hell but God forgives His children of sin... I dont know anymore.. But one thing i know... Believe cant be spelled without "lie"..... And i just want to die..... If anyone feels this way please talk to me!! Shaekelsey21@yahoo.com
21 Apr 2011	noah	hi i am noah and my life is horrible i have 2 freinds but they hate me now my gf just broke up with me and every day i go to school i am called name im punched it is really sterting to get to me i have never really felt this way before i am 12 and i have had 1 girlfreinds and i dont think that i will ever get another i feel as if i am nothing but a waste of space and sometimes i look back into my life and if i were to kill my self somewhere around 200 people would be over joyed
21 Apr 2011	AveRegina	I´m 13 years old and i wanna kill myself. Almost everybody in my class hates me and they usually humiliate me. I really need somebody to talk with :(
19 Apr 2011	una i.	by thinking about the absurd after reading camus and drawing tender hearts with ones own breath on the bell jar keeping you detached from the outside. a more pragmatic approach to it, just taking a deep breath while isolating the kitchen from the outside word. if all this should fail, you my dear, ought to stay alive. by una
19 Apr 2011	renaluv	wel wen i stareted thinking about it waz wen i waz about 8 n now im 11 but i think about it now cuz my mom yakes her boyfriend side over me n she favorez mmy 2broz n lil sis but wen itz me im out of the picture so ive cut myself on my wrist n tried 2 runaway but wen i think about it my lyfe i say y wood i kil myself wen they r da 1z that need 2 b killed but nevr had da guts 2 so ill keep tryin n although her bf waz on my side he btraded me n kept sayin he waz gona leave but nvr dnt n im bein abused stil only by my mom it seemz lyke she hates me so i say she do i spoke 2 pple about my problem but then stopped cuz then they wood go n tel my mom so i dnt evn want her 2 see my kidz if i hve any but yal can either reach me at facebook:misslady nay or twitter:renaluv1
18 Apr 2011	Cameron	Look i suppose i dont really have anything as bad as u guys happen to me in my life im 13 and life isnt worth living iv tried to be happy and yes drugs and drink help i get high and pissed and have a good time but then i just get sad afterwards my idea is either constantly be high or kill myself whilst i am high and drunk i though about going crazy drinking loads buying tons of weed and killing myself that way but that is un practicale so someone please just tell me the best way to commit suicide i have problems but im not going to tell them on here cause im not seeking help im seeking a cowards way out i shall get high and pissed and kill my self whilst im still laughing its the best way to go never mind getting old i may not do it yet i maybe will wait a few years maybe make a list of 50 things i wanna do before i do it things like dont die a virgin and stuff the important stuff in live (and thats not me being sarcasstic i honsestly belive that no one should die a virgin) so tell me people the best way to go (and nothing to hard because i am clumsy when im high) thanks all please respond i dont want sympothy
17 Apr 2011	stephanie	im 12 and i think the best way to kill yourself is by shooting yourself do it fast so the pain ends
17 Apr 2011	Laura	cutting
16 Apr 2011	Two more days of life	Do what my cousin did and what im going to do: take some sleeping pills stand on a balcony and when you start to fall asleep lean over the ledge i tried this on my bed as a test run and it just feels like a bad dream as your falling.
14 Apr 2011	ceecee	Im only 13 and people say that im stupid for wanting to kill myself. No one knows what iv been through and honestly i cant do this anymore. I actually want to do it this time but i dont know how , can someone please tell me ?
14 Apr 2011	Trevor	cut yourself to death is the worst way, a, it hurts too much. b, u always get caught (tried it but had leaked with blood and parents always cleaned it up) c, you realise that you want to do it again.
12 Apr 2011	eric james briggs	I feel like committing suicide and I might do it. I suck at life so bad its sad. Im 19 and I started taking Celexa, its an anti depression drug. I cant concentrate anymore, my grades are so horrible and my parents are pissed. Im just going to stop taking the drug. One thing that I hate is I cant get a girl freind i have tryed so hard, but seem to fail each time. If you want to commit suicide, just call this number it might help: 1-800-DONT DO IT
10 Apr 2011	Jamie	Ok my daughters sister googled how to kill herself, and found the way to do it, as of now she is fighting for her life in ICU, I do not want this to happen to my daughter, her sister is her heart, and I want to know how in the world how to kill ur self is on the internet, she did not succeed, and may be perminently damaged for the rest of her life, not counting the huge scares up and down her wrist for the rest f her life, its NOT WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 Apr 2011	kawasaki	man boys girls womens oldies why r u worrying too much just do suicide its best way to end any horrible life. just go to russia on tourist visa in next harsh winter and just sleep on any frozen river at -30*c and u will sleep forever. no blood no cutting no pain no health upset just a sleep!!!! in hypothermia !!! to rip.
09 Apr 2011	Samantha	Drowning yourself, cutting yourself

Hips- New Track 'antidepressant', New EP, Yr a dingus

Changed the name from 'Hips like Cinderella' to 'Hips' cause its gnarlier. With that said Im droppin a new hips EP on 6/15 (dunno might change) called 'Youth On Pills'.

YOP albart my brah

This is the first track off it. Its somewhat different, sorta getting uninterested in the whole surf rock thing. but there will be some nice simple pop songs on there along with trax like this one.

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Recent Art

These pieces are probably the most conceptual work I've ever done. I used to be like 'nah nigga fuck you and yo concepts bitch it should just look cool' but lately ive realized that concepual work is just as cool.

Self portrait/portrait of the world, 18 x 24 in, watercolor, acrylic, ink on wood panel

This was my 1st assignment for drawing 3. We had to do a piece that represented the struggle between nature and man. I rendered myself as a girl because im more emotional/sensitive than your average dude bro. I prob would have been better off as a girl or gaybro, but alas. Thats rotting fruit under the figure. It shows that we turn to man made things and ignore the natural world to make us feel better. I dunno i think its kinda fucked up that we do that. I feel like i explained that shittily oh well

Self portrait, 25x16 in, ink on dictionary pgs

This concept isnt nearly as complex. I painted my self on a bunch of dictionary pages that were taped together. I then de-taped them and stuck them back together in a effed up way. I underlined a lot of words that i feel define me or what others feel define me. Its sorta about how your true persona is nothing what anyone thinks it is. We all think insanely fucked up thoughts that we never tell anyone about. My outwards persona and other ppls perception of me is 'shattered' in this 'truer' rendering

untitled, 14x18 in, graphite on paper

Honestly dunno really what this concept is but at the same time i know, ya know? I was having like a shitty as fuck day last quarter and i went into life drawing pissed/sad i dont rly remember, but all i do remember is that I drew like a piece of shit that day and what you see above was me trying to render a womans head as best i could. It fucking sucked. A few days ago i was cleaning my room and found the drawing from that class. For some reason i thought it look so fucking cool, so i took it and went back over the erased lines, and i dunno it just looked awesome. I guess its something about finding beauty in things you once thought were ugly or looking at something in a new way then respecting it.

2 acquaintances see eachother

1: Whats up?
2: Hey.
1: How are you?
2: Horrible. I'm more depressed than I ever have been in my life. And its not from any personal problems or anything like that, I'm depressed because of the current state of the world. A human's worth as a person is only measurable by how much money or fame he has. No one is anything to anyone anymore. Nobody thinks of others first, us being ourselves are more important than everyone else on the planet. Nobody cares about me and I don't care about anyone. We're told that to be happy in life we need money, so most of us ignore our dreams and we go to college to get a decent job so we can pay for nice things that have no meaning. We all get in our metal coffins and make the hour+ commute to go to our shitty job that we hate but for some reason thought that it would make us happy. When we shut the car door, we enter our own world. We completely ignore the people in the cars around us. We forget that they are people like us, and that they have problems too. Everyone is so self-conscious that they aren't themselves, they are what they believe the person sitting across the table wants them to be. Everyone is suffering from depression and anxiety because we are all so worried about what others think of us. Every morning when I wake up I have to convince myself not to take my life by fooling myself into thinking my life has value, that someone somewhere cares about me. When really if you think about it, none of our lives mean anything. Everything has been done. Everything has been explored. Everything has been figured out. What could I possibly ever do to make someone care about me? And the worst part is nobody talks about this. I don't know if its just never crossed their minds (how could it not)or if they're just ignoring it because it's all too much to bare. We all just meander through our...
1: (Interrupts 2) Whoa whoa whoa! When someone asks you "How are you?" the correct response is good. I didn't want you to actually tell me how you were. Thats just something Ive been taught to say to make you think I care. I could care less about your problems.
2: Oh, ok.
1: Well I should be going. Have a nice day!
2: You too! See you later!

life

there is no night
there is no morning
there is no chance
of god ever showing
there is no love
there is no hate
only indifference
and pills to take

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everyone is depressed because we all hate what were doing in our lives. no one is doing anything interesting so no one wants to talk about it. bcause of the parenting ways of ppl these days, they raise their child to believe that they are the most precious thing in the universe. thus people will get jealous when others tell them about their accomplishments. how ever the person 'bragging' does so because he f feels the need to prove he is on fact the most precious thing in the universe. As humans we are all guilty of both sides. feels grey