Friday, April 22, 2011

Hips- New Track 'antidepressant', New EP, Yr a dingus

Changed the name from 'Hips like Cinderella' to 'Hips' cause its gnarlier. With that said Im droppin a new hips EP on 6/15 (dunno might change) called 'Youth On Pills'.
YOP albart my brah

This is the first track off it. Its somewhat different, sorta getting uninterested in the whole surf rock thing. but there will be some nice simple pop songs on there along with trax like this one.


Monday, April 18, 2011

Recent Art

These pieces are probably the most conceptual work I've ever done. I used to be like 'nah nigga fuck you and yo concepts bitch it should just look cool' but lately ive realized that concepual work is just as cool.

Self portrait/portrait of the world, 18 x 24 in, watercolor, acrylic, ink on wood panel
This was my 1st assignment for drawing 3. We had to do a piece that represented the struggle between nature and man. I rendered myself as a girl because im more emotional/sensitive than your average dude bro. I prob would have been better off as a girl or gaybro, but alas. Thats rotting fruit under the figure. It shows that we turn to man made things and ignore the natural world to make us feel better. I dunno i think its kinda fucked up that we do that. I feel like i explained that shittily oh well

Self portrait, 25x16 in, ink on dictionary pgs
This concept isnt nearly as complex. I painted my self on a bunch of dictionary pages that were taped together. I then de-taped them and stuck them back together in a effed up way. I underlined a lot of words that i feel define me or what others feel define me. Its sorta about how your true persona is nothing what anyone thinks it is. We all think insanely fucked up thoughts that we never tell anyone about. My outwards persona and other ppls perception of me is 'shattered' in this 'truer' rendering

untitled, 14x18 in, graphite on paper
Honestly dunno really what this concept is but at the same time i know, ya know? I was having like a shitty as fuck day last quarter and i went into life drawing pissed/sad i dont rly remember, but all i do remember is that I drew like a piece of shit that day and what you see above was me trying to render a womans head as best i could. It fucking sucked. A few days ago i was cleaning my room and found the drawing from that class. For some reason i thought it look so fucking cool, so i took it and went back over the erased lines, and i dunno it just looked awesome. I guess its something about finding beauty in things you once thought were ugly or looking at something in a new way then respecting it.

Friday, April 15, 2011

2 acquaintances see eachother

1: Whats up?
2: Hey.
1: How are you?
2: Horrible. I'm more depressed than I ever have been in my life. And its not from any personal problems or anything like that, I'm depressed because of the current state of the world. A human's worth as a person is only measurable by how much money or fame he has. No one is anything to anyone anymore. Nobody thinks of others first, us being ourselves are more important than everyone else on the planet. Nobody cares about me and I don't care about anyone. We're told that to be happy in life we need money, so most of us ignore our dreams and we go to college to get a decent job so we can pay for nice things that have no meaning. We all get in our metal coffins and make the hour+ commute to go to our shitty job that we hate but for some reason thought that it would make us happy. When we shut the car door, we enter our own world. We completely ignore the people in the cars around us. We forget that they are people like us, and that they have problems too. Everyone is so self-conscious that they aren't themselves, they are what they believe the person sitting across the table wants them to be. Everyone is suffering from depression and anxiety because we are all so worried about what others think of us. Every morning when I wake up I have to convince myself not to take my life by fooling myself into thinking my life has value, that someone somewhere cares about me. When really if you think about it, none of our lives mean anything. Everything has been done. Everything has been explored. Everything has been figured out. What could I possibly ever do to make someone care about me? And the worst part is nobody talks about this. I don't know if its just never crossed their minds (how could it not)or if they're just ignoring it because it's all too much to bare. We all just meander through our...
1: (Interrupts 2) Whoa whoa whoa! When someone asks you "How are you?" the correct response is good. I didn't want you to actually tell me how you were. Thats just something Ive been taught to say to make you think I care. I could care less about your problems.
2: Oh, ok.
1: Well I should be going. Have a nice day!
2: You too! See you later!

Thursday, April 14, 2011


there is no night
there is no morning
there is no chance
of god ever showing
there is no love
there is no hate
only indifference
and pills to take

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


everyone is depressed because we all hate what were doing in our lives. no one is doing anything interesting so no one wants to talk about it. bcause of the parenting ways of ppl these days, they raise their child to believe that they are the most precious thing in the universe. thus people will get jealous when others tell them about their accomplishments. how ever the person 'bragging' does so because he f feels the need to prove he is on fact the most precious thing in the universe. As humans we are all guilty of both sides. feels grey